comfort no more

I totally just wrote a really long cheesy blog post about training camp and just erased it all. Because It was just blah blah blah. The simple fact is this: Training Camp for me was so hard. It was overwhelming and the enemy attacked me like never before. But I learned that I have to break out of this shell that I am using for protection. This shell that I have been in my entire life at my little private school. I have to be uncomfortable to do what God has called me to do. I have to be dirty. I have to be broken. I have to be made new. Because God can take something so beaten down and so hurt and so awful and make it into something new. And I believe that is what He is going to do with my team and I. He is going to take these people that we will minister to, who are so broken and He will make them new. He will..in fact…break chains. And when I think of those things that He is going to be doing through us…I know that I am going on this trip for a reason. I'm not quite sure of the reason yet but He will show me. I've just got to get over the petty stuff. I've got to get over the fact that I won't be able to smell American air or eat American food or talk to my American family or live the American life for 9 months. And this is somethng that I have wanted for so long. I have wanted for a while to get out of the American life. But now that it is happening…..it's like looking into a whole new lens. It's so crazy and I need to learn how to explain myself better. But anyways I just felt like I needed to blog. I tried writing, in detail, about training camp..But that's all for another time and another place. 

Please pray for me, if you are reading. I need support and I need to know that there are and will be people here in America praying for me, because I know that it is not going to be as easy as I think……….

I AM SO EXCITED THOUGH DON'T GET ME WRONG..

Oh and this is my team: I really like them. Pray for them too.